Insanity Cubed

    This cocaine is cut with something.　But it is not cut with reality.    When I'm drinking, it feels like reality would suck with or without the drink. So, what the hell, "I may as well drink."
   The insanity of this insanity is that even after a sustained period of sobriety, for me, that “I may as well drink" thinking returns. Even after relapse number one or two or three.

 I am Insanity Cubed.

from All Drinking Aside (Rough Draft, Chapter 66)