Change, for a change

　When I rebelled against this thing or that thing, in favor of the drink, a rebellious nature became my habit. A habit caused by drinking. The power of the habit turned rabid. It's the old "problems caused me to drink more and more drinking caused more problems." That routine had to change. Habit rabid and rotten routine.

I've got to keep changing if I want to keep staying sober.

"The man I was will drink again."

That is the blessing and the curse of sobriety for an alcoholic. Change or die.

Change is good. And yes, change is frightening. And yes,

I did not drink today.

 

from All Drinking Aside (Rough Draft, Chapter 61)