"Transformers"

    I would walk past Kornblau's Delicatessen one way, not drunk enough to eat and later, return the other way, hours later, too drunk to eat. Did alcohol have something to do with that?

    Is that what you're telling me?

    Alcohol was part of every plan. Does that mean that alcohol was the plan? A bar tan replaced my beach tan. Whose fault was that? You're trying to blame me?

    I brushed my teeth every day. Maybe toothpaste was my problem. I took a shower every day. Maybe showering was my problem.

    When had alcohol suddenly seemed so demanding? Fuck you. Gimme a drink. Gimme a drink. Now.

from All Drinking Aside (Rough Draft, Day 19)