"The Distance of Disease"

   All this crap and trying to appear self-assured and having my act together. What may have been obvious to others was not obvious to this drunk. Not at that time. Not then. What else is not so obvious to me now, but someday might? I'll have to get back to you on that.

(Sotto): He doth boast too much in his self-deprecating manner. Actually, I do feel a little sorry for him. Dammit…. He has me playing into his hand, now!
    Self-assurance was my mask. Still is my mask? I could be drunk and still perform. Or so I thought. I'll be all right. I can do this. My drunken high could act with such a mask of self-assurance.

from All Drinking Aside (Rough Draft, Day 18)