Reuptake alcohol

　　 I'm not a Doctor. I can't talk "reuptake inhibitor". But "reuptake alcohol"? That I know. The boundaries of my early sobriety kept changing, like the undulating circumference of an amoeba under the microscope.

　　 "Reuptake alcohol". Inhibit nothing.

　　 Class dismissed. Life destroyed.

　　 Cause of relapse? The first 50,000 drinks.

　　 The illusion of cause. Delusional effect.

(Surimi): The illusion of cause. The delusional self, haunted by possibilities, seeking escape. Addiction to alcohol has changed every boundary in Jim's life.

　　 Rapid mood swings and a slow recovery for Jim. He just spoke of five years sober and it's nearly eight.

　　 Fifteen years since he first got sober.

　　 Invulnerable. Invincible. These lies have been exposed.

　　 Now Jim is mending fences, building bridges.

　　 He is blind. Alcohol has blinded him.

　　 Illusion is cause.

 

from All Drinking Aside (Rough Draft, Chapter 29)