The Illusion of "the same, old high":

(Surimi): More alcohol was needed to give the illusion of the same high. But it was not the same high. Could not be the same high. Addiction takes what is lost out of the equation to give the appearance, the trompe d'oeuil of sameness.

But it is never the same high that is achieved because the highway of more becomes littered with loss.

The equation does not factor in loss because the equation is owned by the addiction and not by the dispossessed.

Comfort should be for the dying, yet, there is, in the end, no comfort in this.

Oblivion is not comfort.

 

from All Drinking Aside (Rough Draft, Chapter 37)