(Vatchi): Sotto, moments of doubt, steps backwards, progress, then regression. These are all of our lives. It's just that for alcoholics and addicts, people like Jim, one wrong step can have deadly consequences.
Daily vigilance is the flipside of the daily reprieve coin. Action and gratitude. Jim still has sick moments that are like little relapses minus the alcohol.
Who's helping whom becomes a moot point in recovery. People are medicine. The melting pot of recovery is a witch's cauldron. Voodoo. Whack-a-mole. Common prayer. A few kind words.
Finally, there is only the knowledge that recovery is possible. Everyone seems to find their own way, sometimes after a string of failures, of near deaths.
Jim's life is coming to an end.
Jim's life has barely begun. The tide comes in. The tide goes out.
I did not drink today.
from All Drinking Aside (Rough Draft, Day 87)
your daily vigilance provides daily recovery but more importantly string of successess. Your life is certainly beginning!
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