Meditation

    It has taken time to still my mind instead of passing out as I used to do. To glide seamlessly from waking consciousness into a blissful night's sleep, waking up refreshed, alert and drug-free. This did not happen overnight and thankfully, I have enjoyed this slow transition. Two months of Transcendental Meditation could not have done this for me. 'Impetuous youth' and alcohol had not run their courses.

   The subtlety of simple wakefulness, the nuanced ebb and flow of my gentle breathing. This is not "addicted to chaos". This simple act of merely letting go took time after being wound up like a toy soldier, alcohol as fuel.

   Toy soldier, letting loose. Sober someone, letting go.

from All Drinking Aside (Rough Draft, Day 20)